Never in my life that I thought I would become a nurse, but I did. I’m not really good at pleasing people, though I tried, I’ll always end up messing everything and hurting them one way or another. Even if people I know say that I’m a very sociable person, but deep inside I know I am not. Those were my reasons why a thought of becoming a nurse never came to me.

   When I was young, people would ask me what do I want to become. Several things came out of my mouth: Doctor, artist, newscaster, businesswoman, computer engineer, writer, designer etc. But when I think of it now, well, is there anything else that I can do? I’m a nurse… A NURSE!

   Did I waste 5 years of my life?

   During my primary and secondary years, I’m already hooked to subjects such as English and History. But one subject which gave me a hard time got my attention. Attention which ignited a small fire within me. Science!

   During my college years, that small fire grows slowly. I told to myself, “Maybe I want to become a doctor.” so I pushed myself passing my limit. I tell you, it was a hell of a ride.

   When I learned the words pathophysiology, alterations and genes I thought that maybe I would be a good nurse. Maybe my heart, after all, seeks to be someone like that. And so I pursue to get that license.

   I had duties in hospitals. It was fun, yeah, especially seeing people’s faces saying, “Thank you so much.” though they know it’s my duty. But something else is missing. Suddenly, I got bored.

   Being in the hospital full of bloody events (bloods doesn’t affect me, really), action, drama and comedy (would you believe me?), why should I feel so bored. Those adrenaline rush is exciting, yes, but there’s something missing.

   I enrolled for graduate school and took Master’s in Bio. Somehow, reading journals, making researches, analyzing data excites me. Weird? Yeah, I know! I hate research during my college years. After thinking a lot, things became clearer. My professor in MA told us last month, “Make a project proposal which interests you. Something which you really want to know. Because if not, all of what you’re doing now is as good as a trash.” These words make some of the dusts covering my eyes fly away. Maybe, the reason why I hate research during college is because of the topic.

   A thought came into me after realizing that. For all the dreams that I had through all my life, if I think of them deeply it will all fall into one thing. Maybe, after all, being a researcher is something my heart seeks.

  For now, I want to become someone who researches about genes etc. I’m still uncertain of what particular field I’m seeking, but I’m sure that I won’t be the one who wishes to die as the richest person on Earth. I just want to leave a trace which other people would recognize as someone who discover something amazing.

  Life is full of uncertain… At least, I am finding ways to live my life to the fullest.

faineemae:

Dear Twilight,
I’m sorry, I can’t hear you over my amusment park.
Sincerely, Harry Potter

(via dailypotter)

jejemon man o hindi eto ang unang blog ko para sa taon na ito…

nag-21 ako last year at this year mag-22 na ako sa march… at hanggang ngaun hindi ko pinagccchan kung bakit for my whole existing in this planet ay wla pa din ako bf… Maraming reasons hindi naman kasi pd wala lang. Ang timang lang pagka-ganun… XDD

1. Too busy… tulog nga lang during college years ko cnasamba ko na ang prof e…

2. Commitment kay God?… YFC made me feel complete and commit myself to my studies and to Him

3. My mom… though my dad, sister and my friends push me to my limits in order for me to have one, I was afraid to disappoint my mother. Natatakot din kasi akong mabawasan ang bonding time namin ni mommy…

4. Can’t find someone with SLR… hindi ung may slr cam na ginagawa nang digicam these days… Sincerity, Love and Respect… un un e!

5. Self Growth… I was afraid of being stuck with someone and never find what else I can do.

6. Afraid?… mga 50% lang cguro…

7. Can’t find time to bond with my closest cousin and my bestfriends…Seriously? XDD ewan ko ba… ayaw ko kasi ma-feel nila ung pinadama ko sa kanila noon lalo na sa guy na best friend ko. Naichapwera kasi siya nung time na may naging close sa akin na iba… basta ung dati na… past is past… HAHAHA!!!

Bakit ko nga ba nailagay ito? kasi maraming nagsasabi na kesa mapili daw (Wehhh… Cno ba ako dba?) … o d pa naka-move on… o may hinihintay…

Pero emo na kung emo… kasi parang na-fi-feel ko ung kinakatakutan ko noon… unti2 na kasi nagkakaroon ng kanya-kanyang buhay ang mga taong malalapit sa akin… ung tipong iniiwasan kong mangyari sa iba e nangyayari sa akin… Overprotective ba ako? Iba talaga ang epekto ng buwan sa akin… XDD… kasi pancn ko tuwing gabi nagiging sensitive ako…  hehehe…

But I’ll stick with my belief this 2011: “Ang lab hindi hinahanap ‘yan o kusang dumadating… Ipinagdadasal ‘yan. Kasi kapag isinama mo sa mga pangarap mo ang Diyos hindi ka mabibigo…” (PANGARAP?!)

~ang korny ng post ko~

okay… I know I graduated BSN this year and I also know that I’m licensed nurse, but it doesn’t mean that I know everything! It doesn’t mean that I can explain everything clearly for lay persons to know. That’s why I took MATBS okay?! I am aware of my knowledge and skills, my strengths and limitations, so please don’t step on me. I tried my best for you to understand my explanation regarding this antibacterial products with their strengths and limitations, but you keep on insisting your opinions. Come on! Explaining these things in details can require great time to explain especially those who don’t have any idea what are lysosomes, IgE, IgA—in short, immunoglubulins—etc, but you keep on interrupting me as if I don’t know what I’m talking about by saying back to me that you don’t believe what I’m saying.You’re so great, why keep on asking me then?

Ito po ay usapang nagmula sa kung bakit may putok ang tao at ano ba ang magandang deodorant at ano ba ang mas maganda: ang alcohol or hand sanitizer… XDDD ang babaw dba?

I’m not a genius, but don’t treat me as if I’m stupid… ok?

Nakakainis lang kasi ang babaw hindi pa matapos tapos… kung nurse ang kaharap ko hindi na aabot sa mga antibodies and usapan na ito…

Again, I’m a girl who doesn’t like spending too much shopping for dress, shoes, etc… But I tell you if you wanna hang out with me be prepared to spend time inside a bookstore for more than 2 hours and if there is more than one bookstore around be prepared to spend 3 hours browsing books. XDDD

I broke my record this time!!! I spent 3 hours inside one bookstore this time… should I be proud of this?

I went to a bookstore this morning and I was trilled to see that there were tons of new book. They were not even arranged yet. Only three customers were inside and that includes me! BOOYAH! I even saw a hardbound Nicholas Sparks book for only Php165.00(3.76971 USD)! Beat that! All in all I spent Php305.00(6.96824 USD). I only went home when I felt that the saleslady and the salesman looking at me. Anyway, I’m planning to collect all my books to pile it all up in one place. I’m also planning to sell some of my books, well, except my JKR, Nicholas Sparks, Judy Alter and some other good books.

~I feel So excited whenever I have new NS book!~

• Mood: Pleased
• Listening to: Waiting for the End- Linkin Park
• Reading: At First Sight - Nicholas Sparks
• Eating: Oats+milk
• Drinking: water

matatapos ka din Twilight series, datapwat hindi katulad ng Harry Potter na patuloy pa rin ang pamamayagpag kahit matapos ang lahat ng libro at pelikula nito… Lalo na ngaun may—*Nosebleed* (wahahaha… ano ba tagalog ng amusement park?)— na may amusement park pa ang HP. Talagang napatunayan lang nito na ang HP ay isang LEGEND!~~~ang pait!

Gaspard Ulliel my new found crush… XDDD but Paris of Troy will always be there… XDDD… SMP

First day sa Gradskul alang prof! XDDD hanep… 9 lang kami at mga pang United Nations… nakakadugo ng ilong… HAHAHAHA… At napansin ko bigla ang watch ko, grabe UERM time… 30 minutes earlier  aun maaga 2loy ako. Tapos sa 7th floor pa sya ng building, meaning itinapon kami sa tuktok ng UE—ISOLATED—- hahaha!!! Walang tubig, walang signal ang cellphone at walang ibang tao kundi kami-kami lang as in wala pa ata sa 20 tao. XDDD Tapos nung pagpasok ko sa room kala ko malaki ang liit pala at ilan lang ang tables and chairs. Bumalik ulit ako sa room assignment baka kasi naligaw ako like nung HS ako. Pero hindi eh, un talaga ang room ko. Tapos aun may pumasok na 2 intsik, may sumunod na isang pakistani at isang intsik ulit, sabi ko tuloy, “Ako ata foreigner dito eh” XDDD matindi pa nung nasa Dent ako kasi may mga foreigner nga ako classmates pero hindi naman un tipong ako lang pinoy. Tapos may pumasok na babae, akala ko un ung prof pero—-yes! nagtagalog sya—-tapos aun may dumating ulit na 3 pinoy… Hahaha!!! maya2 ala pa rin prof aun pinauwi na kami ng nasa office ng Gradskul.

Dumaan ako sa SM San Lazaro kasi usapan namin ng mommy ko… Aun wala na daw sya sa bahay sabi ni ate kaya tinext ko sya na alang prof at nasaan sya… lobat na ako  at wala pa din text. E di tambay ulit ako sa Booksale—-dapat pala nag-Tshirt ako para pd ako umupo sa sahig ng Booksale habang nagba-browse ng books—-para maghanap ng book about photoshop ala kasi sa recto at 200 lang ang budget ko. May nakita ako ang title Illustrator—-software un na parang same ng Photoshop, un ang pagkakaintindi ko ah—-aba ala pumapansin kasi hindi mo talaga mage-gets kung ano ba un unless bubuklatin mo. YEAH! Nakadali ako!!! Php135.00 lang!!! (May binebenta rin palang mga journal notebooks dun na nasa Php140.00 lang ang pinaka mahal at leather pa ang cover kaso hindi na kasya pera ko e…

Aun!!! Babasahin ko muna ung book para may ma-post ako sa DeviantArt na mas matino na mga Digi-arts XDDD back to basics muna para mas maintindihan ko ang bawat buttons ng Photoshop. XDDD

May nakita ako na book about Dreamweaver mga 2 or 3 ata un at nasa 200+ lang sya pero makapal at may CD na kasama… Ano ba ung Dreamweaver?

ithinkimadude:

Sirius Black

1. Sirius Black and the prison fun.
2. Sirius Black and the prison fun.
3. Sirius Black and the reunited with my werewolf boyfriend.
4. Sirius Black and the playtime fun with my werewolf boyfriend.
5. Sirius Black and the who is this girl hitting on my werewolf boyfriend I should. kill her but I die have fun with my werewolf boyfriend you bitch.
6. Sirius Black and the I am dead.

Neville Longbottom

1. Neville and Being Badass.
2. Neville and Being Badass.
3. Neville and Being Badass.
4. Neville and Being Badass.
5. Neville and Being Badass.
6. Neville and Being Badass
7. Neville and Being EXTREMELY Badass.

Filch

1. Filch and the Year Hogwarts Started to go to Hell.
2. Filch and MY CAT IS PETRIFIED!
3. Filch and Nothing Significant.
4. Filch and I Hate Cleaning Up After Other Schools.
5. Filch and I Love Umbridge.
6. Filch and Umbridge Isn’t Here Anymore.
7. Filch and Half the Castle’s Destroyed, I Might As Well Quit.

Severus Snape

1. Severus Snape and the year I had to keep that little kid from getting killed by Quirrel .
2. Severus Snape and the year I had to keep that little kid from getting killed by a book.
3. Severus Snape and the year I had to keep that little kid from getting killed by a fucking dog.
4. Severus Snape and the year I had to keep that little kid from getting killed by the former rat.
5. Severus Snape and the year I had to keep that little kid from getting killed by Umbridge.
6. Severus Snape and the year I had to keep that little kid from getting killed by the other death eaters.
7. Severus Snape and the year I died trying to keep that little kid safe.

Hedwig

1. Hedwig and Fuck Yes Harry Potter Owns Me.
2. Hedwig and I’m a Fucking Owl.
3. Hedwig and I’m Still an Owl.
4. Hedwig and HERMIONE’S NOT AN OWL.
5. Hedwig and Life Is Pretty Great As An Owl.
6. Hedwig and That Pigwidgeon Is Really Starting To Annoy The Piss Out Of Me.
7. Hedwig and SHIT SHIT COCKSUCKER I’M DEAD.

Ron Weasley

1. Ron Weasley and the Fucking Three Headed Dog.
2. Ron Weasley and the Possessed Sister.
3. Ron Weasley and the Rat That Isn’t A Rat.
4. Ron Weasley and the Green Monster of Jealousy.
5. Ron Weasley and the Year of Quidditch.
6. Ron Weasley and the Girl Drama.
7. Ron Weasley and the Wooing of Hermione Granger.

Hermione Granger

1. Hermione Granger and the Levi-OH-sa.
2. Hermione Granger and the turning into a cat then getting petrified.
3. Hermione Granger and the art of overachieving.
4. Hermione Granger and the fact that boys suddenly love her.
5. Hermione Granger and bickering with Ron.
6. Hermione Granger and the Bitch named Lavender Brown.
7. Hermione Granger and the reluctant falling for Ron Weasley.

Cedric Diggory

1. Cedric and That Time He Found Something.
2. Cedric and That Time He Found Something.
3. Cedric and That Time He Found Something.
4. Cedric and That Time He Died.

Dumbledore

1. Dumbledore and the Oh Shit He’s at Hogwarts Now.
2. Dumbledore and the Oh Shit Tom Riddle’s at it Again.
3. Dumbledore and the I Am Totally Allowing Two Teenagers To Save A Convicted Murderer Even Though I Don’t Know For Sure He’s Innocent.
4. Dumbledore and the DID YOU PUT YOUR NAME IN THE GOBLET OF FIYAH?
5. Dumbledore and the Harry’s Angsty, Time to Leave Him Alone.
6. Dumbledore and the I’ll Have Secret Lessons with Harry While I Wait for My Cursed Hand to Kill Me.
7. Dumbledore and the Wait, You Guys Aren’t Supposed to Know About My Past.

Voldemort

1. Lord Voldemort and that time I picked the wrong head to chill on.
2. Lord Voldemort and that time he killed my snake.
3. Lord Voldemort and the time I was not around.
4. Lord Voldemort and that time I killed some spare.
5. Lord Voldemort and the time I hung out in the Ministry.
6. Lord Voldemort and that time that I wasn’t there but Snape Killed Dumbledore.
7. Lord Voldemort and the time he and his friends kicked my ass.

Fred and George

1. Fred and George and the time we confused our Mum.
2. Fred and George and the time we flew a car.
3. Fred and George and the time we gave Harry the Marauder’s Map.
4. Fred and George and the time we got given 1,000 galleons.
5. Fred and George and the time we owned Umbridge.
6. Fred and George and the time we opened a joke shop.
7. Fred and George and the time one of us lost an ear and the other died.

Lucius Malfoy

1. Lucius Malfoy and the Things He Heard About.
2. Lucius Malfoy and the Things He Heard About.
3. Lucius Malfoy and the Things He Heard About.
4. Lucius Malfoy and the Things He Heard About.
5. Lucius Malfoy and the Things He Heard About.
6. Lucius Malfoy and the Things He Heard About.
7. Lucius Malfoy and the Things He Heard About.

ME

1. Harry Potter and the year I became addicted.
2. Harry Potter and the year I discover wizard classism.
3. Harry Potter and the year I fell in love with his parents & their friends.
4. Harry Potter and the year Voldemort came back.
5. Harry Potter and the year I realize the ministry blows.
6. Harry Potter and the year I discover why nobody could just fucking kill Voldemort and be done with it.
7. Harry Potter and the year when shit got real.

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WOAH! Snape is the only one looking after him and keeping him safe, while others including Harry Potter always doubted him… (well, during book 6 I really doubted him for killing Dumbledore). I never had a thought about it until I finished reading book7… XDDD

(Source: leathhedger, via justkeeplaughing)